If the 4th-10th house axis is stimulated by this eclipse, issues surrounding public and private lives, as well as attention to career and to family, are stimulated. The fourth house rules our instinctual needs, the domestic scene, our needs for security, and our focus on family and home life as well as relationships with family. The tenth house ( Read more... )

Absolute official breakdown. Mental fucking breakdown.

Sitting on the back porch of The Razzz with Zach rocking back and forth pulling my hair and dry heaving. Repeating how disgusted and embarrassed I am. Apologizing every other two words. Forgetting to breath. Him holding me and trying to pull my hands out of my hair while telling me to not do ( Read more... )

Back from SLO ( Read more... )

More on Travis. He's lame. I forgot to mention how many times I tried pushing him off of me and trying to get away from him. I'm really disgusted by the thought of him touching me.

Everytime he'd kiss me I'd imagine myself bashing my head into a cement wall to the point where I was unrecognizable. And if I wasn't imagining that then i'd be ( Read more... )

That had to be the most peaceful breakup I could have ever experienced. I love him so much and I have such a great sense of relief being out of the limbo I was in. I'm happy that Reuben was honest with me and himself and I'm glad to know that we were able to joke around and have a nice talk after we settled things. I think he'll be much more at ( Read more... )

I'm back in Livermore and waiting for Ajuni to pick up Reuben and I so we can leave to go to her party ( Read more... )

Feels too depressed to eat.

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Moving back
to the Bay Area.

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Evidence of Rachel and I's new found self-discipline.


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